“I wish I knew why he left. What his reasons were. Why he changed his mind.
For all these years, I have turned it over in my head – all the possibilities – yet none of them make sense.
And then I think, perhaps it was because he never loved me. But that makes the least sense of all.”
Reasons by Lang Leav.
This piece is written and dedicated to a friend of mine.
A girl whose big hearted, strong-minded.
A girl who is cheerful, honest, assertive, sincerely friendly.
A girl who is a friend to everyone, who is good and gentle hearted, but has a sense of just and fairness.
A girl who despite these all good qualities that represent her, she still thinks she is not good enough for that boy she likes.
A girl who despite all these good qualities that represent her, she is still losing her self-esteem by each minutes.
A girl who despite all these gentle qualities, she still knows what she wants and what she can’t get.
A girl who has the best intention and yet not all boy is worthy to have her.
Unlucky for a girl like her, the boys she met along the way wasn’t the best bunch.
A boy who ask for sex to prove her love for him, and then another who said that they weren’t right together just to leave a room for another possibility, all of this happened when she is already in love with him, already fallen from grace and goes deep into the black hole called “love”
And then come along another boy who is so full of himself, keep coming full force and attempting to claim her as his, yet not for the sincere heart but rather just for the sake of having her. Pretending to be a gentlemen, when really he is a douchebag who think he can have any girl in the whole world, and yet this sweet girl of mine isn’t buying the act and refusing to condone his act. She knows at the end of the day, she rather be alone than to be owned but not loved sincerely.
So I write this piece as a letter to her, yet not only her but also all the girls out there who feel the same way.
You’ll encountered a day where you will feel like crying and hide yourself in the deepest corner of your closet.
You’ll encountered a day where questions are repeating themselves in your mind. Asking yourself why, why it always turn out like this. And then you start doubting yourself, believing that you are not worth it, that you shouldn’t be picky, you should just be accepting and be grateful to have him, when you know deeper in your heart that he’s bad for you, or at least he’s not right for you.
At the end of the day, please fight those feelings. I URGE YOU, FIGHT THOSE FEELINGS.
We are not perfect, no one is, yet we should strive for someone, for that good guy, who are perfect for us. Someone who is as grateful as we are to have each other, someone who are also fighting for us like we do for them. Someone who realised we are human being and wanted that the two of you grows together.
Believe me, fight for that kind of relationship. #relationshipgoals
Always believe in yourself, believe that you are good enough to have someone who is right for you, who cherish you as much as you cherish him. Never questions your worth, cause in the end you are the only one that know how much you worth.
Cause at the end of the day, you’ll feel happier alone, content and together, rather than staying in a bad and consuming relationship that you sacrifice everything including yourself and everything that you believe in.
Before I continues on with everything that I want to say here, this is a warning and a reminder for you girls, who after reading this putting some slacked on yourself and get lazy.
I write this to remind us, we need to believe in ourselves.
I write this to remind us, to get the kind of person that we want, we need to be that kind of person first.
I write this to remind us girls, don’t hope for fairy-tale or romance-movie kind of relationship, because it isn’t real. We should create our own happy ending.
I write this to remind us, that we should always strive and fight for the best, and remember to be the best as we can be. #upgradeyourself
And in the end, believe that one day there will that one good guy who are fighting for you. The one good guy who at the end of the day, put as much effort as you in the relationships. The one good guy who despite everything, knows that you are the only one for him.
Don’t you worry about it, because that one day will come soon…
This piece is nothing different to those articles you sometimes read when someone share it on your news feed in Facebook or your other social media.
So I’m not going to say that this piece has the most original content. But here I am writing this piece.
And with this piece, I want to say this to you, yes you, the guy who are still residing in my heart.
I’m so glad that you are worth it. I’m so glad that even though I still don’t know how you feel for me, I know that you are a genuinely good guy, and I know even though I might get heart broken in the end, you are worth all the fights that I’ve gone through all this while.
And till the day I get to know your heart, I’ll be…
Simply, comfortably in love with you
The Blue Hair Girl